An Auspicious Union -4

 

Around 6:00 AM on a message from Shivani. “We’ll be home in 30 minutes. Try to reach by then.” I quickly replied “On my way” and began getting ready. I chose a pair of blue denim jeans and a plain white t-shirt. By 7:30 AM, I had reached her place by auto.

The moment I stepped inside, Shivani’s face lit up. She hugged me warmly, her happiness genuine, and it melted some of the weight I’d been carrying. My brother-in-law joined in, congratulating me with a grin. “From now on, you’re my saali,” he teased,

Normally, I brushed off his jokes—he had a light-hearted nature, though sometimes tinged with seriousness. But today, there was something different in his tone. His words carried a quiet respect. And I noticed something else too—he didn’t hug me like he usually did. Instead, he kept a certain distance, as if, without anyone saying it aloud, he was already acknowledging me as female.

Shivani pulled me inside, smiling brightly. “Come, freshen up. We’ll eat together,” she said warmly.

By the time I came back, the table was ready.

Shivani handed me a small task. “Harini, can you bring the chutney bowls from the kitchen?” It felt different,like she was treating me as a sister, not a brother.

After breakfast, Shivani asked me to help her in the kitchen. While I boiled milk, she made the decoction, then handed me the cups and said softly, “Wait here a minute.” She stepped out, served coffee to her husband, and came back quickly.

Without a word, she pulled me into the bedroom and shut the door. Her eyes searched mine. “Tell me honestly… are you really okay marrying a man as a woman? Are you happy living this life? Or did you choose it only because of our debts?”

Her words broke something inside me. My eyes turned wet. I took a deep breath and whispered, “At first, I wasn’t okay. I thought it was only for money. But after being with Vimal… I felt he’s truly a good man and our family can be debt free , I don’t see it as a burden. I only think… how can I become a good woman, a good wife.”

Shivani’s face softened. She pulled me into a tight hug, wiping my tears with her hand. “Don’t worry,” she said gently. “I’m with you in every step.”

After our talk, I felt so much lighter, as if a big burden had been lifted from my heart. Shivani then said, “Let’s finish cooking quickly, and later we’ll go out—I have some shopping to do.”

She busied herself in the kitchen, deciding to make chicken biryani. I softly reminded her that I had stopped eating non-veg since Vimal’s family is vegetarian. She smiled and replied, “That’s fine, dear. You don’t have to eat, but I must take care of my husband too.” In that moment, I understood just how deeply she cared for him, in every little detail.

By 10:00 AM, the dishes for lunch were ready. Shivani told her husband he could eat whenever he liked and to reheat the food if needed, since we were going out.

I sat in the hall while Shivani went to change her dress. A few minutes later, I noticed her husband also slip into the room, and soon I could hear their soft giggles and playful laughter. It made me blush, realizing they were having their own little romantic moment. After five minutes, they both came out, looking cheerful. My brother-in-law then said warmly, “I’ve transferred ₹5000—buy something nice for Harini too.”

I am still in my jeans and t-shirt—the old me, Harinath. But walking beside Shivani that morning felt different. For the first time, I wasn’t just her brother—I was stepping into something new, something that scared me yet pulled me closer. We reached the mall, and Shivani wasted no time pulling me into a women’s boutique. Until now, I had only ever waited outside shops like these while Shivani or my mother browsed inside. Now, for the first time, it was me walking in. My palms felt sweaty.

She picked up a light blue kurti and held it against me, tilting her head thoughtfully. “See? This shade will bring out your softness.”

I shook my head quickly. “Didi… people will laugh. I’m still in jeans… I’ll look odd.”

She chuckled warmly. “Everyone is too busy with their own lives. And even if someone looks, remember—you’re not pretending. You’re choosing who you are.”

I allowed her to push me gently toward the trial room with a simple kurti and leggings. My heart pounded as I shut the door.

Inside the trial room, I nervously pulled the soft blue kurti over my head. It slipped down smoothly, the fabric brushing against my skin in a way that felt strangely comforting. But when I looked in the mirror, my smile faded. The kurti fit well around my shoulders and waist, but at the chest it hung loose, flat.

When I stepped out hesitantly, Shivani immediately noticed. She didn’t say anything at first. She just walked around me, adjusting the kurti, studying me carefully. Then, with a knowing look in her eyes, she leaned close and whispered, “Wait here.”

Before I could protest, she went to another counter and came back holding something wrapped in delicate plastic. My face grew hot as I realized what it was—a simple, padded bra.

“Didi…” I muttered, almost backing away.

She smiled reassuringly. “Don’t be shy. Every woman needs the right support. This will help you look and feel more complete in these clothes.”

She pressed it into my hands and gently pushed me back toward the trial room.

With trembling fingers, I slipped it on under the kurti. The difference was immediate. The fabric no longer sagged awkwardly—it shaped itself naturally around my chest.

Shivani bought me couple of kurthis, leggings and padded bras n padded panties

From there, Shivani took me to another shop, and as soon as we stepped inside, I was stunned. The racks were filled with soft cotton nighties in every shade imaginable—floral prints, pastel tones, bright colours. The whole shop seemed alive with womanhood.

Shivani began pulling out three or four pieces, holding them up against me, her eyes sparkling with excitement. “This one will suit you… and this… maybe this one for summer nights.” She didn’t even ask me if I wanted them—she just knew I would need them.

I stood quietly, not sure what to say. When she turned to me and asked, “How’s the colour?” I could only give a shy smile.

Then she moved to another section stacked neatly with petticoats.They were arranged in rows—white, black, pink, green, maroon, cream. She picked out six basic colours, explaining gently, “These will go with most sarees. Every woman needs these.”

We searched, and she found a better-quality set with lace and frilled edges. They were bit expensive, but they looked delicate and elegant. Shivani didn’t hesitate—she added them to the pile.

I realized then that I was no longer just standing and watching. I was choosing. I was stepping into this life, piece by piece.

By the time we returned home, our hands were full of shopping bags. After lunch, Shivani handed me a neatly wrapped packet. “Before you try the nighty,” she said with a little smile, “open this first.”

I carefully unwrapped it and found a padded bra inside. My heart skipped—so simple, yet it felt like such an important step. Shivani came closer and explained gently, “Wear this, Harini. It will give you the right shape and make you feel more confident. Clothes look different when the foundation is right.”

Nodding, I went inside the bedroom and changed. Sliding the bra on was an odd mix of nervousness and excitement. When I looked in the mirror, the shape it gave me made my chest look fuller, softer. For the first time, the reflection staring back didn’t feel half-empty.

Then Shivani handed me a petticoat. “Now, wear this beneath the nighty,” she instructed, her tone warm but firm, just like an elder sister teaching a younger one. “It’s not just about modesty, but also comfort. You’ll see.”

When I finally slipped the pastel pink floral nighty over the petticoat and bra, the whole look felt complete. The nighty didn’t hang loose anymore. I ran my hands along the soft cotton, a smile tugging at my lips without me realizing.

Shivani watched me from the doorway, her eyes full of pride. “See? My Harini is glowing already,” she whispered.

When I finally slipped the pastel pink floral nighty over the petticoat and bra, the whole look felt… complete. The nighty didn’t hang loose anymore—it draped naturally, the way it was meant to. I ran my hands along the soft cotton, a smile tugging at my lips without me realizing.

Shivani watched me from the doorway, her eyes full of pride. “See? My Harini is glowing already,” she whispered.

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With that, Shivani made me walk out to the dining hall for lunch. The moment I stepped in, my brother-in-law looked up from his seat and was completely shocked—his eyes widened in surprise at the way I looked. For the first time, I could sense that he wasn’t seeing me as Harinath anymore, but as Harini.

When I sat down, I didn’t even realize that my petticoat was peeking slightly from beneath the nighty. But both Shivani and her husband noticed it. Shivani gently smiled, leaned closer, and said in a sisterly tone, “A lady always keeps an eye on herself, the way she sits, the way her clothes fall—it’s part of carrying yourself as a woman.”

Her words made me blush, and I quickly adjusted myself, pulling the nighty properly over the petticoat. Brother-in-law said nothing, but his expression still carried that surprised respect—as if silently acknowledging the change in me.

 

After finishing lunch, I got up and was about to head toward the hall, but Shivani stopped me with a soft smile.
“Harini, come back—cleaning is also part of it,” she said, handing me a cloth.

She patiently showed me how to wipe the dining table properly, how to gather the plates, and how to rinse them before placing them in the sink. I followed her, a little clumsy at first, but she corrected me with care. After that, she guided me into the kitchen, explaining how to keep the counters neat and arrange the vessels in order. I realized these were small things I had never paid attention to before, but to Shivani, they seemed natural.

Once everything was tidy, Shivani turned to her husband and said, “You go take some rest in the other bedroom. I’ll spend some time with Harini.” He nodded, still smiling faintly at me, before heading off.

Then Shivani took my hand warmly and pulled me into her room, closing the door behind us. She looked at me with a mix of seriousness and affection.
“Harini, did you ask Vimal whether he reached the hotel safely? You should always check on him. And keep talking with your saasu ma too… these things matter. You are going to be their daughter-in-law, and they should always feel your care.”

Her words sank deep into me. Until now, I had been thinking of Vimal mostly as the man who stirred my heart. But Shivani was teaching me to look beyond—to think of myself as a wife, a daughter-in-law, someone stepping into an entirely new family.

I started listening to Shivani seriously,  After a pause, I lowered my voice and asked, “But akka… how can I satisfy a man? I myself was a man till just a couple of weeks back. I never imagined I’d be dressed like a woman, taking on all these womanly duties… living this life.”

She placed her hand gently on mine and said, “Harini… being a woman is not just about clothes, or even about the body. It’s about the way you give your heart. Men may be strong on the outside, but they crave tenderness, warmth, care. You already have those inside you. That’s why Vimal is drawn to you.”

I blinked, unsure if I was ready to believe that. Sensing my unease, Shivani added softly, “Don’t worry. These things take time. You will learn—step by step—how to be a wife, how to hold your husband’s heart. The rest will follow naturally.”

Shivani leaned in closer, her voice dropping so low it was almost like a secret being passed between sisters.

“Harini… when you’re alone with your husband, don’t think of yourself as a man at all. Think of yourself only as his woman. “When he pulls you close, don’t resist—melt into his chest. Let him feel that you belong there.”

“When he bends his head towards you,” Shivani went on, “close your eyes halfway and let your lips soften. Don’t press too quickly—just touch his lips gently first, let him feel you waiting. Then, when you’re ready, give in slowly. That’s what makes him lose control.”

Shivani smiled, almost teasing. “And when his hands move… don’t be scared. Guide him if you need to. Hold his wrist, place it where you feel safe. Sometimes even placing your hand over his penis tells him you want more. Trust me, men adore it when a woman shows she’s willing. Feel his dick and hold it with your palm and try to feel how it will be when some flesh enters your body”

I felt heat rise in my cheeks. Shivani touched my chin gently, lifting my face. “And if he touches your saree, your blouse… don’t panic. That’s natural. Adjust your pallu with grace, but if you feel ready, let it slip a little—it will drive him mad. Just remember, you control the pace. Your softness is your power.”

“Harini, today you’re sitting in this nighty, but tomorrow, you’ll be sitting with your husband in a saree. You must know how to carry yourself as his wife.”

She came closer again, her fingers grazing the fabric near my shoulder. “When you sit, Harini, be mindful.” She guided me to the edge of the bed and pushed the nighty’s edge down slightly, mimicking how a petticoat peeks out. “See this? Don’t let it show. A lady quickly tucks it back, always checking herself. That habit makes you truly feminine.”

Then, softly, she placed her own hand over my waist, guiding it to the side of my waist. “When you sit near Vimal, don’t hide. Let him see you adjusting your saree, let him see the curve of your breasts, the way your fingers rest here.” She pressed my hand gently against my side, showing the motion. “These little things draw a husband closer than any words.”

Her tone dipped lower,. “And when the night comes… if you want to woo him, let the pallu slip slowly… not too fast. Give him the thrill of waiting. Men adore patience, Harini. The saree itself becomes your partner in seduction.”

As Shivani’s gaze flickered down, she couldn’t help but notice outline pressing against the soft fabric of my nighty due to my penis. I instinctively tried to cover myself with my hands.

Shivani raised an eyebrow, then smirked playfully. “So… the man in you still wants to remind me he exists,” she teased softly.

I lowered my eyes in shame. “Didi… I’m trying. But sometimes my body doesn’t listen.”

She gently touched my arm, “Don’t feel ashamed. Even this is part of your journey. Right now, your body reacts like Harinath—but when when you wear your saree, when you let Vimal’s eyes wander over you… you’ll see. Your dick you will be softened, shortened and soon your dick will be useless once vimal’s dick enters your body and you will crave for it more.”

Her words sent a shiver down me, but because they were spoken with such confidence, such womanly certainty.

As Shivani kept explaining, I suddenly felt restless—an urge building inside me, a pressure I didn’t know how to handle. The nighty clung to me lightly, the petticoat brushing against my legs, and my body betrayed me. Shy and embarrassed, I muttered, “Shivani… I think I should just go to the washroom for a minute.”

Before I could move, she caught my wrist, “Harini… no. A woman doesn’t run away just because her body is restless. She learns to carry it with grace.”

“You want to know how to be a wife, right? Then learn this—sometimes you let the fire simmer. Sometimes you hold the tension in your body, because that very tension makes you softer, makes you more… inviting.”

I stood before her in my nighty and petticoat, my heart pounding. She tapped my shoulders lightly. “Relax… don’t stand so stiff, like Harinath. Keep your shoulders soft, your arms closer to your body. Let your wrists move freely.”

I tried to copy her, but she laughed gently. “Not like you’re marching in NCC camp, silly.” Then she guided my hands herself, placing one on my waist and letting the other brush against my thigh naturally. “See? Softer, more delicate.”

Then she stepped back and showed me how to walk across the room, her saree swaying gracefully. “Notice how the hips move slightly? Don’t drag your feet—lift them lightly.”

I tried, fumbling at first, but she clapped her hands like a teacher encouraging a child. “Better! And when you sit, Harini, don’t spread your legs like a boy. Keep your knees together, pallu or nighty covering you properly. It shows elegance… and also modesty.”

I obeyed, lowering myself onto the bed carefully, tucking the hem of the nighty close. She smiled proudly.

“And one more thing,” she whispered, leaning close, her eyes glinting with a mix of sisterly mischief and seriousness. “When Vimal is around, don’t just stand. Play with your pallu, tuck it neatly, adjust it softly now and then. It makes a man’s eyes follow you without him even realizing why.”

Her words made my cheeks flush hot.Shivani patted my cheek softly. “Good girl. These little gestures… they speak louder than words.”

The rest of the day became Shivani’s private lesson in womanhood.

With that, she mentioned that first I should practice walking. At one point, she tilted her head, watching me cross the room. “Harini… you’re not walking properly,” she said with a sly smile. Then she went to her cupboard and pulled out one of her petticoats. “Wear this over the one you already have.”

I hesitated, but she insisted, handing it to me. Once I slipped into two petticoats beneath my nighty, the difference was immediate—it was heavier, tighter, and walking suddenly became more difficult. Shivani’s eyes sparkled as she instructed, “Now walk again.”

I tried, and without realising, my steps grew smaller, softer… more feminine. Even my hips swayed slightly as the layered petticoats forced me to move slowly and differently. Shivani clapped her hands softly in delight. “There! See how graceful you’ve become? A lady’s walk should whisper, not shout.”

She leaned closer, adjusting the nighty so no hem of petticoat peeked through. “Remember, modesty outside, allure inside. The petticoat must never show—but let it guide your body.”

We both lost ourselves in those lessons, and only when I glanced at the clock did I realize it was already 4:00 PM. Three whole hours had slipped away without notice. Just then, a light knock came at the door.

“Do you both want tea?” my brother-in-law’s voice called gently.

Shivani’s eyes widened and she quickly replied, “Oh no! I didn’t even notice the time. Don’t worry—Harini will make it.”

I stood up, smoothing the nighty unconsciously, and stepped out toward the kitchen. For a moment, I felt his eyes follow me. The layered petticoats forced my steps small, and my hips swayed naturally. The way he was watching me, I could almost feel the weight of his gaze lingering at my back.

Before the moment could stretch further, Shivani playfully swatted his arm. “Stop staring,” she teased.

Shivani then joined me in the kitchen, leaning against the counter with her usual mischievous smile. “Now, Harini, let’s see if you can prepare tea properly,” she said.

By the time the tea was ready, the aroma filled the kitchen. Shivani stood close, correcting little things—how I held the tray, reminding me to keep my wrists soft, my elbows close, and to walk without rushing.

“Now remember, Harini,” she whispered with a playful seriousness, “a woman never just walks into a room—she arrives. So keep your steps small and steady, let your saree… or in this case, nighty and petticoats… flow with you.”

Her words made me blush, but I nodded and carefully carried the tray out.

When I placed the cups on the table, my hands shook a little. “Don’t bend so fast, Harini… move slow, let the cloth flow with you. A husband should enjoy watching you.”

Her warm breath made me shiver. I tried again, bending slowly, and I could feel the layers of petticoat moving against my legs. My brother-in-law cleared his throat as if he didn’t want to stare, but I still felt his eyes on me. Shivani noticed too and gave him a playful slap on the arm, making him look away.

It was almost 5 by the time we all finished tea. I stood up and told my sister, “I’ll go to my room, I need to prepare for office tomorrow.”

An Auspicious Union -3

 

With a head full of thoughts, I went back inside, lay down, and fell asleep again. When I woke up around 6:00 AM, it was already time to start the day. I got ready and reached the office by 8:30 AM. The first thing I did was head to the canteen, grab some breakfast, and dive into work.

The day got so busy that I completely forgot I still hadn’t told my dad my final decision.

Around 2:00 PM, my phone buzzed. I stepped out of the meeting room to take the call.

“How are you doing?” Dad asked gently. And then, without waiting too long, he came to the point:“So, what’s your response?”

I smiled and said, “Dad, since I was a kid, I’ve always believed you know what’s best. I completely trust your decision—for our family and for me.”

There was a long sigh of relief on the other end. And then he said, with quiet joy,
“I’m going to call Vimal’s mother and tell her... my son will soon be her daughter-in-law.”

Later that evening, my dad called Vimal’s mother. They exchanged warm greetings. She mentioned that she was currently in Vijayawada, standing at the Kanaka Durga Devi temple when she picked up the call.

With calm confidence, my dad said, “My son is happy to become your daughter-in-law. We have no objections. You have our full support.”

There was a short pause, and then her voice came through, full of emotion.
“All blessings from Durga Ma,” she said. “This is truly her wish.”

She added, “Both their kundalis match well. There’s strong compatibility between them and further added there would be two kids for us.”
Then, with a soft but firm tone, she said, “Please tell your son… now is the time to start learning how to be a daughter-in-law, and to understand our traditions. This isn’t just about marriage—it’s about becoming part of our family, our values.”

My dad promised her that I would do my best.

And as I heard all this later from him, I couldn’t help but feel a mix of nerves… and excitement.

Around 6:00 PM, after reaching home from work, I checked my phone. There were several missed calls from my sister, mom, and dad. I hadn’t noticed earlier because my phone was on silent.

I quickly called them back on a video call.

For the first time, I saw my dad smiling on a video call. Mom and my sister looked so happy. All three of them wished me best wishes with joy in their eyes.

Then, after a few minutes, Dad smiled and said, “You ladies continue the discussion,” and stepped away from the call.

His words stayed with me. You ladies.
It hit me—maybe in his heart, I was no longer just his son. Maybe, in his eyes, I was already his daughter now.

Mom leaned in closer and said gently, “Vimal’s mother hopes you’ll start learning their traditions and culture soon. Don’t worry, … we’re all with you.”

The call went on for almost an hour. It was filled with support, laughter, and a strange kind of peace and anxiety.

After hanging up, I started preparing a simple dinner for myself. Just as I was about to sit down, I received a short message from my brother-in-law: "Congratulations."

I smiled.A few minutes later, there was a knock on my door.

When I opened it, I was surprised to see the same driver who had dropped me off the night before. He held a small box in his hands.“Sir asked me to give this to you,” he said.

He looked a bit surprised seeing me in a loose track pant and t-shirt—not the saree, not the soft look from yesterday. But he didn’t say anything.

I gave him a small smile and said, “Thanks.”

Then I closed the door, holding the box close… wondering what was inside.

With a rush of excitement, I opened the box.

Inside was a brand-new phone — soft pink in colour. I couldn’t help but smile. It was beautiful, delicate… and felt like a gift meant just for me.

I switched it on. There was only one number saved in it — his.

A message popped up:
“Thank you. Love you. This number is only for us.”

Before I could even react, the phone started ringing. It was him.

I picked up, trying to sound casual. “Where are you?”

He chuckled. “Mumbai. Important meeting. Should wrap it up in a day or two if all goes well.”

Then he asked, “And you? What are you doing?”I smiled and replied, “I’m talking to my fiancé.”

There was a pause, then we both laughed — soft, warm, full of something new.

Then, in his usual teasing tone, he said, “You know, pink really suits you. Just like that little smile of yours last night.”

I blushed.

He continued, voice softer now, “Now that you’re officially mine… I think I’ll have to start buying more pink things for you.”

“Like what?” I asked, amused.

“Oh, let’s see,” he said, pretending to think. “A soft pink saree. Maybe some pink nail polish… definitely a few cute pink nighties. And when the time is right—some lovely pink lingerie too.”

I covered my face with my hand, laughing. “Vimal!”

“What? I’m just planning,” he said, chuckling. “My wife should look like a dream.”

“And you’re perfect,” he said simply.

Then, trying to be serious, he said, “Hari Vimal…”

I paused. “Hmm… doesn’t sound right.”

And without meaning to, we both said at the same time:

“Harini Vimal.”

There was silence.Then I heard him take a soft breath. “Say it again,” he whispered.

I smiled. “Harini Vimal.”

“Beautiful,” he said, his voice low and full of something tender. “Now say it one more time… but this time, imagine me holding you.”

“Vimal…” I said, heart fluttering.

And then, without warning, he made a soft kissing sound over the call.

One on the cheek. Another near the ear. Then one a little longer—right on the lips.

“You promised not to flirt too much,” I whispered, blushing.

He laughed. “That wasn’t flirting. That was love. And just a few sample kisses from your future husband.”

After finishing my dinner, I called my sis from old phone and as she is also in her room she lifted immediately and then I started sharing that Vimal gave me a gift .

He gifted me a pink phone. Only his number saved. When I switched it on, he called. We talked for a while… and he kept teasing me.”

“Oh?” she asked playfully.

I smiled. “He said pink suits me. That he’ll buy me more pink things—a pink saree, nail polish, even… pink lingerie.”

Her laugh exploded through the phone. “Wow, he’s not wasting time!”

It wasn’t the kind of talk I used to have with my sister when I was her brother. She wasn’t talking to her brother anymore. She was speaking to her sister.

Then she added, almost casually, “When I am in Bangalore next week, let’s go shopping… just the two of us. For your new life. For Harini.”

She wasn’t joking.There was no teasing in her voice.

Our calls that night went on until 11:30 PM. Between the emotional day, the long journey, and a packed day at work, I could barely keep my eyes open.

We finally said goodnight and drifted off to sleep — with a soft kind of peace.

The next two days flew by. Work was intense. Meetings, deadlines, barely a moment to breathe. And in the middle of it all… no call or message from Vimal.

I kept telling myself he must be busy.

But by Wednesday evening, I couldn’t hold back anymore. I picked up the new pink phone — the one that felt like a quiet promise — and called him.

He answered immediately. As if he’d been waiting.

"I was just about to call you," he said quickly, "I’ve been swamped… I’m so sorry."

But before I could stop myself, I said, “No, no… I should be the one saying sorry.”

He chuckled, a familiar warmth in his voice. “The deal finally closed today. Everything wrapped up in Mumbai. I’m so relieved.”

I smiled, about to ask the question that had been on my mind for days — what kind of business is your family in? But something held me back.

He’ll tell me when it’s time, I thought.

So instead, we shared how our past few days had been — little details, quick laughs, small silences that somehow didn’t feel awkward.

Then, casually, I asked, “How’s sasu ma?"

I blushed instantly, hiding my face even though he couldn’t see me.

We spoke for a few more minutes. Then he said, “I’ve got a client meeting now — they’re waiting downstairs.”

With a mock-annoyed tone, I huffed, “Fine. Carry on then.”

He laughed — loud and genuine. “Sorry, dear… I really need to go and mentioned that he is travelling to Japan and will be back after one week.”

I just wished him best wishes for the trip.

In the meantime, Shivani informed me that she will be back to Bangalore on Friday night and asked me to come to her home on Saturday morning.

I am not sure what is happening, at office, I feel time is running very fast and at home ,feel its very slow. There is no message or call from Vimal and I also didn’t try to contact him as I am sure he will message me once he is back.

An Auspicious Union -2

 

On Sunday morning, before Vimal and his mother arrived, Shivani and a beautician came over to help me get ready.

Shivani handed me the soft cotton petticoat and helped me tie it firmly around my waist. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I could already see the difference—the saree would fall more gracefully because of the shape it gave me.

The blouse was simple, elegant, and perfectly fitted, its sleeves ending just above my elbows. Fortunately, it had built-in pads, and Shivani  added a little extra fabric inside them. The subtle change gave my figure more feminine contour, and I found myself lingering in front of the mirror longer than I intended.

Then came the saree.

Shivani moved around me with practiced ease, wrapping the fabric around my waist and drawing it snugly across my body. She carefully formed each pleat, smoothing them with her fingers before tucking them into place.

When she finally brought the pallu up and folded it over my shoulder, I stood still, almost afraid to move. The unfamiliar weight of the layered fabric made me suddenly conscious of every curve and every small movement. I lowered my eyes, feeling a flutter of nervousness.

For a moment, I simply looked at my reflection.

The person in the mirror still felt like me, yet somehow softer, more graceful, and strangely captivating. I touched the edge of the pallu resting against my shoulder and felt a quiet thrill run through me. I wasn't entirely sure whether I was nervous about being seen this way.

My long hair, which usually I let flow freely, was now a great help to the beautician. She added subtle hair extensions to give volume and length. She decorated the braid with fresh jasmine flowers, their sweet scent filling the room and adding a traditional touch to the look.

Next, she helped me put on a set of bangles slid over my wrists. Finally, Shivani added a simple silver chain around my neck, something modest but elegant.

I looked at myself in the mirror. The makeup softened my features, the saree and jewellery framed me gently, and the jasmine flowers in my hair completed the transformation. For a moment, I hardly recognized Hari in the reflection—yet beneath it all, I was still me, trying to prepare for what was coming.

Though I was still angry and frustrated about everything, I had to admit—the makeup had completely transformed me. When I looked into the mirror, I didn’t see the usual version of Hari. What stared back was someone softer, someone unfamiliar… someone society might easily mistake for a young woman dressed for an arranged marriage.

But inside, I was hungry. I hadn’t eaten anything since morning, and the smell of breakfast from the kitchen only made it worse. Yet, dressed like this, I couldn’t just walk into the dining room and eat like I normally would. I felt stuck in a role that I wasn’t sure I had chosen.

At exactly 9:00 AM, the doorbell rang.

As committed, Vimal arrived along with his mother, another woman—probably his sister—and the middleman who had arranged everything. Mom opened the door, and Shivani stepped forward to greet them. I remained seated, trying not to meet anyone’s eyes.

The room fell silent.

Only Shivani broke the quiet atmosphere with her usual charm. “How was your journey, aunty? Did you find the location easily?”

Vimal’s mother gave a polite nod. “Yes, it was fine. The driver knew the route.”

The middleman smiled and added a few casual remarks to lighten the mood, but the rest of the room was heavy with silence. I sat with my hands neatly folded on my lap, aware of every movement, every glance.

Out of the corner of my eye, I finally looked at Vimal.

And for the first time, I noticed how handsome he really was. Clean-cut, confident, well-groomed, with calm eyes that didn’t dart around like others—he held himself with quiet strength. Wow… this person is gay? I thought. Hard to believe. No wonder his mother looks so upset…

Then my eyes shifted to his mother. Dressed in a rich but simple saree, she had an air of discipline about her. Her posture was stiff, and her eyes sharp—clearly a woman of high standards and strong opinions. And yes, I could feel it—she wasn’t happy. She tried to hide it with a neutral face, but the disappointment was there, quietly sitting in her eyes.

No one said anything for a few minutes. The silence was almost awkward.

Then the middleman spoke up. “Shall we allow Vimal and Hari to speak privately?”

He looked toward Vimal’s mother. She hesitated for a moment, then gave a short nod. The middleman turned to my father, Satyam.

“Is it okay, sir, if the boy and girl—” he paused, slightly awkward, “—talk for a few minutes in private?”

Dad looked at me.

He didn’t say anything. Just waited for my response.

I didn’t have a choice. I gave a slight nod.

Shivani stepped in immediately. “Come,” she said, lightly holding my hand.

She guided me to our parents’ bedroom and made sure I was seated comfortably on the edge of the bed. Within moments, Vimal walked in. Shivani gave him a quick glance, then looked at me, and quietly stepped out, closing the door behind her.

The room was still.

Just me and Vimal.

For a few moments after the door closed, neither of us said a word.

I kept my eyes down, staring at the floor. The pallu of the yellow saree sat neatly in my lap, my bangles resting against each other with a soft clink every time I shifted slightly. I could feel Vimal looking at me, but I wasn’t ready to meet his gaze.

Finally, he spoke—his voice low and calm.

Vimal held my gaze for a long moment, his hand still resting gently over mine.

Just as I began to feel a strange calm between us, he took a slow breath and said something I wasn’t expecting.

“There’s something I need to tell you, Hari… something important.”

I looked at him cautiously.

“I’m not gay.”

I froze slightly.

My fingers instinctively reached down to adjust the pleats of the yellow saree on my lap. They had started to shift slightly with all the sitting and nervous movements. As I neatened them quietly, I looked up, confused, waiting for him to explain.

He continued, voice low but honest. “The first time I saw you… it was at the SBI bank. You were at the counter. Dressed in a soft blue kurta, long hair… something about the way you stood. I thought you were a woman.”

I slowly picked up the pallu that had slid down from my shoulder and held it gently in my fingers. The soft fabric felt oddly comforting in the middle of this conversation.

“You weren’t even trying to get attention,” Vimal said, “but I couldn’t take my eyes off you.”

He smiled faintly, lost in the memory.

“I went home that day thinking I had just seen the most beautiful woman I'd ever come across. I didn't even know your name.”

As he spoke, my fingers reached for the simple silver chain around my neck—an unconscious movement. I twirled it gently between my fingers, then pressed the cool metal lightly to my lips. My thoughts drifted as he continued talking. I wasn’t just listening—I was feeling every word settle deep into me.

“Later, I saw you again in Bangalore. Near your office. That’s when I asked around—quietly, carefully. And that’s when I found out you weren’t a woman.”

He paused, letting the moment sink in.

“I was confused at first. Really confused. But I couldn’t ignore how I felt. I was already in love with you. Something about your presence, your silence, your grace… it just stayed with me.”

I continued to hold the chain to my lips, staring slightly away, not directly at him, lost in thought. My mind was still catching up to everything he was saying.

Vimal leaned forward slightly. “I knew my mother would never accept it—not in our Jain family, not with our traditional views. So I told her I’m gay. That I found someone who understands me and that I wanted to marry that person.”

I turned to look at him now, chain still resting between my fingers.

“You lied to your mother… just to meet me again?”

He nodded without hesitation. “Yes. It was the only way. And I don't regret it. Because it brought me here, to this moment—where I could finally sit across from you and say honestly… I want a life with you.”

There was silence again. A softer one this time.

I looked down at my hands—the bangles faintly jingling as I adjusted the chain around my neck, my thumb gently tracing the edge of the pendant.

His voice broke the silence one last time.

“I’m not asking you to change everything in a day. I’m just asking… will you take a chance on this? On me?”

I looked up again. There was no pressure in his eyes. Just hope.

I took a slow breath. My voice came out softer than I expected. “I don’t know what this life will look like… or how I’ll even fit into it. But if what you said is true—if you really saw something in me, not just what I wear—then… yes.”

He exhaled gently, his shoulders relaxing. A soft smile spread across his face.

I felt a strange calm inside me. The chain rested back against my neck, and the pleats of the saree no longer felt awkward. I wasn’t pretending anymore. I was simply... choosing.

Vimal’s eyes stayed on me—not searching for more, not pressing for anything else—just full of something I couldn’t quite name. Maybe respect. Maybe admiration. Maybe love.

Then, gently, he said with a soft smile,
“You know… you’re looking really cute in this saree.”

I looked away, slightly embarrassed. My fingers automatically went back to the silver chain around my neck. I didn’t know what to say.

But Vimal wasn’t done.

“And when you were sitting there, holding the chain like that, lost in thought… my heart actually skipped.”

That made me pause. My breath caught for a second.

Without saying a word, I stood up slowly. Something pulled me to look at myself. There was a mirror behind me, slightly to the side near the wardrobe.

I turned and walked towards it, almost without thinking.

And there I was.

In the soft yellow saree, the pleats now properly arranged. The jasmine flowers still fresh in my long hair. The silver chain resting just at my collarbone. Eyes lined lightly with kajal, lips tinted softly. Bangles on my wrists, quietly reflecting the sunlight streaming through the window.

I didn’t recognize this version of me… but I didn’t reject it either.

As I was still taking it all in, I suddenly felt warmth around me.

Vimal stepped closer and gently hugged me from behind. His arms wrapped around my waist in a quiet, steady embrace.

Then, softly, he kissed my collarbone.

His voice was low but sincere as he whispered,
“Thank you for dressing up in the saree to meet me and my mom.”

The moment felt fragile and real, and I didn’t pull away.

Just then, a soft knock came at the door. It was Shivani.
“Do you two need some water? It’s been almost 30 minutes… and everyone’s waiting. Please come out when you’re ready.”

Vimal gently opened the door, and I stayed seated inside the room, still wrapped in the quiet of that moment.

When we joined the others, Vimal and his family politely refused breakfast, settling instead for coffee.

After a short while, they said their goodbyes.

Before leaving, Vimal’s mother pulled my dad aside for a private conversation. She said she would call later to share their decision.
Dad nodded silently, but I saw the confusion flicker in his eyes—a confusion that soon made sense to me. It was all part of Vimal’s careful plan.

The moment they left, Mom and Shivani gathered around me, their questions pouring out, but I was still numb, struggling to find any words. My mind was spinning, unable to process the sudden turn of events.

Then after some 30 mins, Dad called Mom, and just five minutes later, Mom called me and Shivani. Dad’s voice trembled with uncertainty as he told us that Vimal’s mother had called, saying they liked me and wanted to take things forward.

Now the weight of their hopes pressed down on me, and confusion tangled inside my heart. What could I say? How could I decide? I simply turned away, slipping quietly into my room without answering.

Dad followed me, his presence calm and steady. He placed his hands gently on my head and spoke softly, “Don’t worry, whatever you decide, I will support you.”

Overwhelmed, I carefully tucked my pallu across my waist, adjusted it over my chest, and bent down to touch his feet. In that humble gesture, a silent prayer escaped through my tears. In that moment, I felt both lost and deeply loved — caught between fear and the promise of hope.

Meanwhile, both my sister and mom came into the room, gently urging us to have breakfast.Sister glanced at me and asked softly if I wanted to change my saree. But somehow, I pretended not to hear. I hurriedly took a plate of idlis and began eating as if I hadn’t eaten in days.

After two or three idlis, I suddenly realized I was still wearing the saree, and the soft jingling of bangles echoed every time I moved my hand. The whole room was wrapped in a quiet stillness.

When everyone finished their breakfast, I quietly gathered their plates and carried them to the kitchen. Sister followed me, asking if I could prepare coffee for all of us. Cooking and kitchen work were familiar to me, but the challenge was how to manage everything gracefully while wearing a saree.

Noticing my hesitation, sister suggested I change into something more comfortable. I shook my head, insisting it was fine. Then she carefully arranged my saree pallu and tied it firmly around my waist. Immediately, I felt more freedom to move my hands.

But as she observed me still struggling to move easily, she advised me to lift the saree pleats and tuck them in neatly to make walking and working more comfortable. The trick worked perfectly — except for one thing: it exposed my bright yellow petticoat underneath.

Despite that, I smiled quietly to myself, feeling a little more confident as I got on with the work.

I placed all four coffee cups carefully on the tray and was about to carry them to the dining table when my sister stopped me.
“As a lady, before stepping out of the kitchen, you should always adjust your saree properly,” she said gently.

She took a moment to remove the pleats I had lifted earlier to make the coffee. Slowly and carefully, she adjusted my saree pleats and draped the saree perfectly around me. With a soft pat on my head, she whispered, “Make sure you cover yourself properly.”

Her words lingered in the air, heavy with meaning. It wasn’t just about the saree or the blouse—it was about the new life I was being asked to step into. The unspoken expectations, the traditions I was supposed to follow, the careful image I needed to present to the world.

Was I truly ready for all this? For the changes, the responsibilities, the unknown?

Dad complimented saying coffee is very good and I told that I need to leave today evening and will leave by 5.00 PM bus. And sister informed me that she is going to stay here for one more week and then my brother in law will come next weekend and to pick her. With that mom told me that she will prepare for lunch and dinner box so that it will be helpful in the journey. After lot of hesitation, my dad asked me what should I respond to them. I told him that will share my thoughts after reaching Bangalore. And my dad told me to confirm by Monday evening for which I accepted.

Dad took a sip of the coffee and smiled, “This is really good.”
I nodded and then told them, “I need to leave this evening. I’ll catch the 5:00 PM bus.”

Sister mentioned that she would be staying here for another week, and that my brother-in-law would come to pick her up next weekend.
Mom chimed in, “I’ll prepare lunch and dinner boxes for your journey. It’ll be helpful on the road.”

After a pause filled with hesitation, Dad finally asked me softly, “What will you tell them?”

I took a deep breath and replied, “I’ll share my thoughts once I reach Bangalore.”

Dad looked at me with quiet understanding and said, “Make sure to confirm by Monday evening.”

I nodded, accepting his request, though inside I felt a mixture of uncertainty and resolve. The days ahead felt heavy with decisions yet to be made, but at least for now, I had a little more time to gather my thoughts.

Taking a deep breath, I moved to my room to start packing my bag. Sister followed quietly, offering to help. She handed me a nighty to wear and closed the door behind her.

She looked at me gently and asked, “What are you thinking?”

I hesitated for a moment, then confessed, “I’m confused.”

“At one point, I know that with all this, our financial problems would be solved. But at the same time, I don’t know what lies ahead.”

I paused, gathering my thoughts. “I’ve struggled so much to finish my education. Slowly, I’ve been tasting success. And now, I might leave all of that behind to settle into a completely different life—as a married woman.”

“Until now, I’ve lived life like a boy, carrying burdens, sharing responsibilities. But if I say yes to this marriage, I’ll be stepping into a new role—the role of a wife, the lady of the house. That’s a huge responsibility, and I don’t know if I’m ready.”

I looked down for a moment, then admitted with a small smile, “But I have to say, Vimal is very handsome—any woman would be lucky to have him. And honestly, I’m surprised that someone like him would even like a guy like me.”

If I marry him, I need to forget that I am man and need to live like a woman. I am feeling am I ready and confused.

Shivani was quiet for a moment, then picked up both a t-shirt and boxer shorts from the drawer and held them up beside the nighty. With a soft smile, she asked, “If I gave you a choice between these—what would you choose to wear now?”

I looked at the clothes in her hands—the soft cotton nighty on one side, my usual boxer shorts and t-shirt on the other.

I didn’t even have to think. “Boxer and t-shirt,” I said, almost instinctively, reaching out to take them.

My sister didn’t pull them back, but she didn’t hand them over either. She just looked at me.

I avoided her gaze.There was silence for a moment. Then she said, gently, “Why?”

I shrugged. “It’s comfortable. I’ve always worn them.”

She nodded. “Fair enough.” She sat beside me on the bed, placing both sets of clothes between us. “But maybe comfort isn’t always about habit. Sometimes, it’s about letting yourself grow into something new.”

She turned slightly to face me. “You said something a few minutes ago... that if you marry Vimal, you’ll have to let go of the man you’ve been. That’s not a small thing. But are you sure it means giving up who you are?”

I frowned. “Isn’t that what this all is? Becoming someone else? Living like a woman, dressing like one, thinking like one... being seen like one?”

She tilted her head. “Maybe it’s not about becoming someone else. Maybe it’s about becoming more of who you already are. You’ve carried so much, Hari. You’ve been strong. You've protected us, supported us. Who says those things aren’t part of being a woman too?”

She continued, “Wearing a nighty doesn’t erase the strength in you. It doesn’t take away the sacrifices you’ve made.. What it can do is help you step into this new part of yourself—not as someone pretending, but as someone embracing.”

I looked at the nighty again. It was light, floral, soft. Simple. Intimidating, somehow, for everything it symbolized.

I swallowed. “I’ve never worn one before.”

“Then maybe now a give it a try,” she said, her voice warm. “Just for yourself. No one else. No expectations. Just you… seeing how it feels.”

I ran my fingers over the fabric, hesitant. Then, quietly, I said, “What if I don’t feel anything? What if I still feel like me?”

She smiled. “Then that’s your truth. But you’ll only know if you let yourself try.”

I held the nighty in my hands, feeling its softness, its unfamiliar weight. For a moment, I was silent. Then, almost in a whisper, I said, “Okay.”

My sister said nothing, just placed a gentle hand on mine.

I stood, holding the nighty close to my chest, and walked slowly to the bathroom. My heart was pounding. I didn’t know if I was letting go or stepping forward. Maybe both.

As I clutched the nighty to my chest and walked slowly toward the bathroom, my heart pounded like a drumbeat echoing in my ears.

Just as I reached for the door handle, Shivani’s voice stopped me.

“Hari…” she said softly.

I turned, surprised.

She stood there, not moving, eyes gentle but serious.

“Wait.”I looked at her, confused. “What is it?”

She hesitated, then walked a little closer.

“We were brother and sister from birth,” she said quietly. “But today, looking at you in that saree… I didn’t see my brother. I saw my sister. And sisters… share things.”

Her words landed in the space between us, quiet but undeniable.

“You don’t have to go hide in the bathroom,” she said gently. “You’re not doing anything wrong. You don’t need to feel ashamed or alone.”

I felt my face flush. “It’s not about shame, Shivani. It’s just… I’ve never done this before. It feels… private.”

She nodded, understanding. “It is. But it can also be safe. You're not alone anymore.”

She stepped forward and held out her hands.

“Take off the saree here. I’ll help you fold it. You can wear the nighty over petticoat. There’s no need to run from this moment.”

I looked at her, stunned.

Something inside me shifted—something soft and fragile, long buried beneath duty and denial.

“You’re serious?” I asked, my voice barely a whisper.

She smiled. “I’ve never been more serious. Sisters support each other. Trust me… I’ve folded sarees a hundred times.”

My hands trembled as I loosened the pallu. The fabric slid gently off my shoulder. She reached out and caught it, carefully folding the end, her movements practiced and respectful.

Together, in silence, we unwrapped the saree—layer by layer—until I was left in just the blouse and petticoat. Then I removed blouse as well. I clutched the nighty to my chest, uncertain.

She folded the saree into a neat square and placed it gently on the bed. Then she turned to me.

“You’re beautiful, you know,” she said. “Not because of the saree or the nighty—but because you’re brave enough to be yourself. That’s what makes you shine.”

I swallowed hard, my throat thick with emotion.

“I don’t know what I’m becoming, Shivani.”

She placed her hands on my shoulders.

I pulled the nighty over my head. It caught on the petticoat, so I gently adjusted it with my hands and pulled it down. The petticoat gave the nighty a soft, smooth shape and helped me feel covered. I understood then why women wore one beneath a nighty—not only for modesty, but also for a gentle, feminine touch.

I smoothed the fabric and looked at Shivani.

Shivani took a step back and smiled.

“There she is.”

I looked down at myself. I didn’t feel like a stranger. I still felt like… me.

Shivani smiled. “Feels nice, doesn’t it?”

I nodded, quietly. “Yeah… it really does.”

But my eyes kept going to one thing—my chest.So flat.
Shivani, standing behind me, noticed the shift in my expression—how my fingers lightly tugged at the fabric near my chest, how my smile faded just slightly.

She stepped closer and placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder.

“Don’t worry,” she said, her voice calm and warm. “One day, you’ll have a breast like mine too. And all the dresses… they’ll fit you perfectly and you can feed your hubby and kids.”

Hey! It's not like that," I said, crossing my arms playfully. "I was just… looking at myself. That’s all. Just checking how I look in this."

Shivani raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced but amused. "Oh really?"

I smirked, but then my voice softened as my eyes drifted back to the mirror.

"Honestly… I was just wondering what made Vimal like me. I mean, look at me. I'm still figuring all this out."

As I stood there in front of the mirror, still lost in thoughts about Vimal and everything that was changing inside me, the room’s quietness was broken by the sound of the door opening.

It was Mom.

She stepped in, paused for a brief second when she saw me in the nighty—but said nothing.

"Finish your lunch quickly," she said in her usual tone. "Then take some rest. You have a long journey ahead."

And just like that, reality returned. The spell of the moment broke, and I nodded quietly.

We all stepped out of the room. I looked around, instinctively searching for Dad—only to realize he wasn’t home yet.

Mom headed to the kitchen and called out, "Come help me."

I followed her, and Shivani joined us too.

She was preparing to cook chicken—one of our family favorites. We moved around the kitchen like clockwork, chopping, cleaning, stirring… no one saying much, yet everything feeling complete. Natural.

Three women in the kitchen.

It struck me suddenly, almost silently—how normal it felt.

No one pointed it out. No one acted like it was strange. We were just… there. Together.

And somehow, time began to fly. Between laughter, quiet exchanges, and shared glances, it was already 1:00 PM when Dad returned.

We all sat down to eat. The meal passed in silence, not heavy—just comfortable. A shared quietness.

By 3:00 PM, I went to change. I  took off the nighty and petticoat, folded them neatly, and slipped into my blue jeans and a blue kurta.

But when I looked in the mirror again… something felt off.

The fabric was familiar. The style was safe. But it didn’t feel like me—not anymore.

Still, I said nothing.

As I stepped out, Dad looked at me and said, "I’ll drop you at the bus station."

I shook my head gently. “It’s okay, Dad. I can manage.”

He smiled and patted my head, like he always did, but this time, it felt different. Like a silent blessing.

“Just let me know your thoughts about the proposal by Monday evening,” he said. “I need to inform Vimal’s mother.”

I nodded.

With a swirl of thoughts clouding my mind, I reached the Guntur bus stand around 3:30 PM. I checked the ticket counter, asked about the next bus to Bangalore—still unsure about everything.

Just then, a man approached me and said politely, “Sir is waiting for you outside. Please come.”

I hesitated, confused. Who?
Before I could ask, he took my bag and started walking. I followed him, uncertain.

Outside, near a black SUV, stood Vimal.

He smiled gently. “I’m travelling to Bangalore today too. Thought we could go together.”

Before I could respond or ask about his mother, he added,“Amma and Veda will leave for Vijayawada today. They want to visit Kanaka Durga temple, so they'll come to Bangalore tomorrow.”

The driver loaded my luggage into the car and opened the door without waiting for my approval.

Still stunned, I got in. The car rolled out of Guntur. Silence filled the space between us. I stared out the window, lost in the rhythm of the road, until we passed a small Ram Mandir on the outskirts.

Instinctively, I folded my hands and whispered a silent prayer.

Vimal noticed. He leaned forward. “Stop the car. Let’s visit the temple.”

I turned to him, surprised—but thankful. I nodded quietly.

I slipped off my slippers and followed him into the temple courtyard. The air was warm, scented with incense and jasmine. A group of young boys ran up to me, trying to sell garlands and flowers.

Before I could respond, Vimal handed over some cash and picked two garlands—a tulsi one, and another of fresh jasmine. He carried them both.

The priest greeted us with a smile—the temple had just opened for evening darshan. The sanctum glowed in soft oil-lamp light. We stood together, side by side, offering prayers.

After the aarti, the priest turned to me, smiling warmly. He offered me a small bundle of jasmine flowers from the idol of Sita Devi and said:

“Amma, keep this on your head.”I froze for a second.

He thought I was a woman.But I didn’t correct him. I simply accepted the flowers into my hands, heart pounding softly, and bent down to take his blessings.

His palm rested lightly on my head as he spoke: “Deergha Sumangali Bhava.”
(May you have a long and blessed married life.)

The words struck something deep inside me. I couldn’t speak.

Then he turned to Vimal and handed him a rose flower from Lord Ram’s feet, blessing him with:“Ayushman Bhava.”
(May you live a long life.)

Vimal bowed silently.

After darshan, we stepped out and sat on the temple steps. I looked up at the evening sky, holding the jasmine flowers quietly in my lap.

Just then, the priest walked over, smiling warmly.

“Child,” he said gently, “always apply a tilak—whether you’re in jeans or a saree.”

Before I could respond, he dabbed a bit of kumkum on my forehead. “Now, a little turmeric on your cheeks,” he added with a grin, dotting the yellow powder softly across my skin. “And flowers in the hair complete the blessing.”

I hesitated, still holding the jasmine in my hand.

I glanced at Vimal—his eyes glittered, not with mischief, but with something deeper.

Pride. Victory. Joy.

In that still moment, between turmeric, kumkum, and jasmine, I stopped pretending.

After a few more quiet moments on the temple steps, we stood up and began walking back to the car.

The jasmine flowers still rested gently on my head, the scent following me with every step. My cheeks carried the soft glow of turmeric, and the kumkum tilak sat bold and bright on my forehead.

As I walked ahead, I could sense Vimal just a few steps behind me.

I wasn’t imagining it—his gaze lingered.

There was a quiet awareness in me… how the sway of my hips, shaped subtly by the petticoat earlier, now carried a grace I hadn’t noticed before. Feminine.

I didn’t turn around. I just kept walking. Somewhere behind me, I could feel Vimal still watching.

For nearly two hours, the car didn’t stop. The hum of the road and the soft AC lulled me into sleep. I rested my head against the window, jasmine still faintly fragrant in my hair.

Around 6:00 PM, the car pulled over near a Café Coffee Day on the outskirts.

I felt a light tap on my hand—Vimal.

“Wake up,” he said softly, “Let’s grab some coffee.”

I nodded sleepily and stepped out. We walked slowly, side by side, into the café and found a quiet corner seat, tucked away from the rest.

For a moment, neither of us spoke. The silence between us had become familiar, almost comfortable.

Then, Vimal broke it—his voice low, steady.

“You know… this isn’t the first time I saw you in that blue kurta and jeans.”

I looked up, surprised.

He smiled faintly. “SBI Bank. Guntur branch. A few months ago. You were standing at the counter, filling a form. Hair tied up, same kurta. I was there for some paperwork.”

My eyes widened. I tried to recall.

“I noticed you,” he continued, his tone calm but direct. “Not because of how you looked… but because of how you carried yourself. Strong. Still. Like you were hiding something beautiful without even realizing it.”

I didn’t know what to say. My fingers wrapped around the coffee cup, heart beating a little faster.

“That day,” he added, leaning back slightly, “I kept thinking about you long after I left the bank. I didn’t even know your name then.”

I looked at him, quietly stunned.

All this time, I thought I was invisible. And yet, someone had seen me—fully—even before I had begun to see myself.

And it was him.

I took a deep breath, feeling a little more open than before.

“Do you think it’s that easy for me?” I asked quietly, my voice barely above a whisper.

“You say you thought of me as a lady... but I’m a man.”

I looked down at my hands, struggling to find the words.

“Draping a saree in front of family. Letting strangers see me as a woman... it’s not easy. Not for me.”

I swallowed hard, my throat tightening.

“Can you even imagine how much I’ve gone through? How much my dad must have struggled?”

For the first time, I was letting him see the weight I carried—not just the surface changes, but the deep, silent battles inside.

Vimal looked at me, his eyes soft but steady.

“Hari,” he said gently, “I can’t fully understand what you’ve been through—no one can unless they’ve lived it. But I see your strength, not just in how you look, but in everything you’ve shared with me.”

He reached out, lightly touching my hand.

“Your journey, your pain, your courage—it all matters. And it’s real.

“I don’t expect you to change overnight or pretend to be someone you’re not. I just want you to be who you want to be. No judgments, no pressures.”

His words wrapped around me like a quiet promise.

We started our journey again and this time, Vimal slept on my lap, I rested one hand gently on his shoulder, while the other slowly stroked his hair, giving him a simple, soothing massage.

The warmth of the moment reminded me of the time he had hugged me from behind when I was in the saree—a quiet, protective embrace that had stayed with me.

Feeling the steady rise and fall of his breath, I realized he had slipped into a deep sleep.

Carefully, almost hesitantly, I leaned down and kissed his forehead.

It was a soft, unspoken promise—a delicate beginning of something mutual, something quietly growing between us.

After kissing his forehead, I leaned back and looked out the car window. The sky was quiet, but my mind wasn’t.

All these years, we’d been fighting to survive—harassed by private lenders, drowning in debts, abandoned by relatives who refused us our share of the property.

And now, this man—this handsome, gentle man sleeping on my lap—thinks I’m a woman. Loves me like one. Even after learning the truth, he said, “I’m not gay. But I’m here—for you. As a man, I’ll stand by you.”

He asked for nothing but love… and for me to be his wife.

And the strangest part? My elder sister is ready to help me become the woman.But am I ready? Do I want this?

My thoughts tangled. Then suddenly, Vimal stirred. Still resting on my lap, he looked up and saw the storm in my eyes.

Without a word, he lifted my hand and kissed it.With his gentle kiss on my hand, I came back to my senses.

I looked down at him—those eyes, soft and steady—and gave him a small smile. Quiet, but real.

As if my smile was the answer he’d been waiting for, he reached up, cupped the back of my head, and pulled me toward him.And then, without hesitation, he kissed me.

Firm. Certain. A man’s kiss.I didn’t pull away. I couldn’t.

He pulled back slightly, just enough to look at me. His thumb brushed my cheek, and I realized I just closed my eyes. “I didn’t mean to scare you,” he said softly.

“You didn’t,” I whispered. “You… you just made me feel different.”

He smiled then, keeping his head on my lap, slowly inserted his hand inside my kurta  and started messaging on my tummy and that making me feel uncontrol.

His touch was gentle and slow. As his fingers touched my stomach, I felt something change inside me. The kurta felt like a kurthi—a woman’s clothes..

My heart raced, but I felt peaceful.

He asked quietly, “Is this okay?”I nodded. “Yes.”

The car slowly stopped outside a restaurant, and the driver got out, showing it was time for a dinner break. He got out first, and then I stepped out after fixing myself.

I still felt like there were flowers in my head. I tried to brush them away but left them, curious how people might react.

He waited for me and then motioned me to come closer. we ordered food. While eating, I asked him what he expected from me in marriage.

He smiled kindly. “Nothing hard. I want a loving wife.”

He looked at me with care. “Hari, you have done so much for your family. Now, I want you to become the woman you really are—the wife I have hoped for.”

He spoke softly. “My mother wants you to follow our Jain traditions. That means wearing sarees and living as a woman. You can wear what you want in private, but outside, I want you to be the woman.”

My heart beat fast, and I asked, “Does that mean you are ready to marry me since you are asking about what I will be?”

I asked softly, “What kind of sarees do you mean? Do you have any idea?”

He smiled warmly, his eyes full of hope. “Those are the little things that make a woman’s world beautiful. As my wife, you’ll learn to choose them—you’ll know. And your sister can help, too. I dream of us slowly building a family together, filling our home with love and laughter... maybe even children someday.”

After we finished dinner, he reached across the table and gently took my hands in his.

“Marry me,” he said softly.

I looked at him, and for a moment, I couldn’t speak. There was something so honest, so pure in his eyes—it made my heart flutter. I was right at the edge of saying yes.

But instead… I smiled, leaned in just a little, and said, “Hmm… let me think about it.”

The night air was cool as we stepped outside the restaurant.

He looked up at the stars, then turned to me, his voice barely above a whisper. “You don’t have to say yes now. But I meant what I said.”

I stepped a little closer. “You asked me earlier… and I wanted to say yes. I almost did.”

He turned toward me, searching my eyes.

I smiled, heart pounding. “So… here it is.”

I reached out and took his hand. “Yes. I’ll marry you.”

For a moment, he didn’t say a word. Then his hand tightened around mine, his eyes shining. He pulled me into a hug—no words, no rush. Just two people standing still under the stars.

Soon, we got back into the car. I shared my Bangalore address with Vimal and the driver. Without even realizing it, I was holding Vimal’s hand. We both closed our eyes and drifted off to sleep.

Around 3:30 AM, the driver stopped in front of my place. Vimal gently woke me up, helped carry my bag, and walked with me to my small 1BHK flat. He stepped inside for a moment, smiled, and said softly, “Take care. I’ll wait to hear from your parents officially.”

Then he left. I watched as his car slowly drove away into the early morning stillness.

An Auspicious Union -1

 Disclaimer : This story is purely fictional and it has inspiration from many stories that i have read over period of time.

My name is Harinath, and I’m 24 years old, from Guntur in Andhra Pradesh. Today is a very special day for me—I’ve officially completed my Company Secretary (CS) course, and I couldn’t be happier.

I come from a close-knit and loving family. My father, Satyam, works as an accounting clerk in the transport office. My mother, Uma, is a homemaker who has always been the emotional backbone of our family. I also have a sister, Shivani, who recently got married and moved to Bangalore. She holds degrees in B.Sc and B.Ed, and before her marriage, she worked as a school teacher. Since moving to Bangalore, she has taken on the full-time role of a homemaker.

While Shivani’s wedding was a joyous occasion, it brought with it a heavy financial burden. We spent generously, hoping to make it a memorable event for her—and we also believed that income from our ancestral agricultural land would help us manage the expenses. Unfortunately, things didn’t go as planned.

Due to poor rainfall and unexpected legal disputes over the ancestral land among extended family members, the returns we had counted on never materialized. In the end, our family’s share came to only around ₹3 lakhs—nowhere near enough to cover the wedding expenses. As a result, we are now burdened with a debt of around ₹45 lakhs.

Despite these challenges, I remain hopeful. Completing my CS course feels like a major step forward, and I am determined to work hard and support my family through this difficult phase. My parents have made many sacrifices for me, and now it's my turn to give back.

Despite the setbacks, I try to remain optimistic. Completing my Company Secretary course is a significant milestone, and I’m determined to do whatever it takes to help lift my family out of this difficult situation. My parents have sacrificed so much for me—it’s now my responsibility to stand by them.

As I walked home, my mind was filled with thoughts about how to repay this debt. One option is to start looking for a job now that I’m a certified Company Secretary. The starting salary may only be around ₹20,000 to ₹30,000 per month, but it’s a start. The other option—though not something I’m entirely comfortable with—is to consider marriage. If dowry comes into the picture, it could help ease our financial burden. While I don’t personally believe in accepting dowry, the reality we are facing makes it hard to turn it down if offered.

As for me—I’m around 5'4" to 5'5" tall, with very fair skin and shoulder-length hair. I'm quite thin, with a delicate frame and features that some might describe as slightly feminine. In fact, when seen from behind, I’ve been mistaken for a woman with short hair. It doesn’t bother me much—I’ve always believed that what truly matters is what we do and how we carry ourselves, especially in tough times like these.

The moment I stepped into the house, I was warmly welcomed by my mother, who greeted me with sweets, her face beaming with pride. Within minutes, my father arrived home—also carrying sweets—and joined in the small celebration. Soon after, I received a congratulatory call from my sister, which made the moment even more special. It truly felt like a day of joy and gratitude.

With all these emotions unfolding, I decided to visit the Durga Devi temple to thank the goddess for her blessings. Standing there, I felt a renewed sense of hope and began thinking positively about the future—especially about preparing my CV and figuring out what to include to attract good interview calls.

Just then, my father called me aside and shared some unexpected but wonderful news: his company had agreed to offer me a position as a Company Secretary, with a starting salary of ₹18,000 per month. Given our current situation, this was a huge opportunity. Without a second thought, I accepted the job.

Now, it has been almost six months since I started working. I feel I’ve learned a lot and am gradually becoming a valuable part of the company. More importantly, I’ve also begun contributing to my family. Every month, I set aside ₹10,000 specifically for loan repayment. It’s a small step, but it feels like a meaningful beginning toward a more stable future.

A few months later, as a token of appreciation for my performance, I received a bonus of ₹50,000 from my company. To make the most of it, I added another ₹50,000 from my savings, making it a total of ₹1,00,000. I decided to use this amount to repay a portion of our loan at the State Bank of India (SBI), where part of our total debt is held. My goal was to reduce at least the monthly interest burden.

As expected, the SBI branch was crowded—it was a Friday afternoon, after all. I took a token and waited for my turn. Though I could have simply deposited a cheque, I preferred to pay in person. I also wanted to inquire if there was a way to lower the interest rate or possibly consolidate our other loans by shifting them to this branch. Having everything in one place would make tracking and managing the repayments much easier. ( Below is AI Image)

 

 When my number was finally called, the officer at the counter took my documents and then walked into the branch manager's cabin. From where I stood, I could see the officer answering several questions while standing. Inside the cabin, another person was seated. He looked quite young—perhaps in his mid twenties—and carried himself with a sense of quiet confidence. Judging by his appearance, he seemed to come from an influential or well-connected background.

A few minutes later, the officer returned holding a set of forms. He asked me to fill them out, explaining that they required detailed information about all existing loans taken from banks. However, he clarified that loans from private lenders, especially those based on promissory notes, would not be considered.

Luckily, a good portion of our total loan—nearly ₹22 lakhs, which accounts for about 50%—was covered under bank loans, making us eligible for the scheme. He also mentioned that if we consolidated all our bank loans into a single account, the interest rate could be reduced by 1%, which would significantly ease our repayment burden.

I collected all the papers and started walking home, a smile spreading across my face. For the first time, I felt like I was truly contributing to my family—I had just paid off ₹1 lakh of our loan. It felt like a small but meaningful step toward lifting the financial burden, and I was already thinking ahead, planning how to repay the rest of our family’s debts as soon as possible.

Time flew by, and before I knew it, I had completed one and half year at my job. That’s when the thought started creeping in—maybe it was time to look for a new opportunity. I wanted to join an MNC, to grow in my career and secure a better future for myself and my family.

I discussed the idea with my parents, and they were supportive, especially since my sister Shivani was already living in Bangalore. When I told her about my plans, she was thrilled and immediately offered to let me stay with her. But I hesitated as I didn’t want to intrude on their space. I told her, “Let’s see how things go once I get the job.”

So I began applying.Within a few weeks, I received a call from a media company in Bangalore for a virtual interview. Thankfully, my experience at my current company helped, and I cleared it smoothly. They then invited me for a face-to-face round at their Bangalore office.

With a mix of excitement and nerves, I travelled to Bangalore. I stayed at my sister’s house, freshened up, and headed to the interview. It was with the company’s CFO, a man in his mid-50s. The interview lasted about 70 to 80 minutes, and I felt it went quite well. We covered everything from work experience to future goals.

Towards the end, he looked at me and asked with a smile, “Why have you kept your hair so long?”

I laughed and replied, “I didn’t really have a reason to cut it—and no reason to grow it either. It just kept growing, and I let it be.”

He burst out laughing, and just like that, we ended the interview on a lighter, more personal note. It felt like a positive sign.

It took nearly 15 days to hear back from the company in Bangalore—but thankfully, the wait was worth it. I was selected for the role, and my salary jumped from ₹18,000 to ₹50,000 per month. It felt like a huge leap forward—not just financially, but in terms of where my career was heading.

Since my sister’s house was quite far from the office, I started looking for a place of my own. I got incredibly lucky. I found a 1BHK apartment just a short distance from work, and as it turned out, the house belonged to the company’s facilities manager. He offered it to me at a very reasonable rent of ₹7,500 per month. Though it was a bit expensive for me at the time, I felt confident I could manage it with my new salary—and more importantly, it gave me independence and peace of mind.

With this new financial stability, I also decided to increase my monthly EMI payments toward the bank loan. My father, meanwhile, focused on clearing the loans he had taken from private lenders. It felt good to share the responsibility and lighten his burden, even if just a little.

But despite all our efforts, the reality was sobering—it might still take us another 15 years to clear all the remaining loans. It was a long road ahead. Still, for the first time in a while, it felt like we were walking it with purpose, one step at a time.

I had truly started enjoying my new job. The work was fulfilling, and I was receiving genuine appreciation—not just from my immediate team, but even from the board members. My documentation during meetings and the way I handled communication with banks were particularly well-received. In fact, my CFO personally praised me during a team meeting, which was both encouraging and motivating.

Amidst this professional high, my parents began searching for marriage alliances. Although I was still not mentally prepared for marriage, I went along with the process out of respect for them. Deep down, I wasn’t in favor of dowry—but at the same time, I found myself passively okay with it if the girl's side voluntarily offered it. It was a confusing space to be in, emotionally and ethically.

As proposals started coming in, rejections became part of the process. Some were turned down by my sister after meeting the families, and a few were rejected by the girls' families as well

There was one meeting that left a lasting impression—though not for the best reasons.

The girl I met seemed polite at first, but within a few minutes, she bluntly said, "You remind me a lot of my girlfriend."

I was taken aback. Confused, I asked what she meant.

She casually replied, "It’s just your overall look—long hair, no mustache, smooth skin... even your nose is delicate, and your wrists are so slim. Honestly, your body structure—especially your hips—reminds me more of a girl than a guy."

I didn’t know how to respond. She didn’t say it with cruelty, but it still hit hard.

It wasn’t the first time someone had pointed out these features—my sharp nose, small wrists, soft facial features, and slightly broader hips. These were things I had lived with all my life.

So, I brushed it off. Her comments didn’t say anything about me—they only reflected her narrow view of what a man should be

 

This back-and-forth over marriage alliances continued for nearly two months. Some conversations were hopeful, others frustrating, and many just emotionally draining. I had started to take it all in stride, without getting too invested.

Then, one fine day, during a casual phone call with my mom, she mentioned that a new proposal had come in—from Bangalore. She said, “They’re very interested… and they’re even willing to offer a significant amount, if you agree.”

That caught my attention. I asked her, “Is there any problem with them?”

She replied that they were from an extremely affluent and well-respected family in Bangalore. Apparently, even my brother-in-law had spoken to them and given a positive impression. Mom went on to say that the middleman who brought the proposal couldn’t stop praising their social status, wealth, and humility.

Then came the surprising part—she told me they had already seen me twice. Once in Guntur, and once again in Bangalore.

I was stunned. Who are these people? I tried to recall if I’d met anyone who might fit the description, but nothing came to mind.

What struck me even more was how long the call went on—almost 30 minutes. It’s rare for my mom to talk that long on the phone, and her tone was unusually soft and thoughtful. She also mentioned that my sister Shivani was very happy about the proposal, which made me feel like this was something the whole family was taking seriously.

I asked, “What about Dad?”

She simply said, “Your father said the decision is yours. He’ll stand by whatever you choose.”

Toward the end of the call, she hesitated for a moment—then added, “The middleman who brought this alliance… he’s somehow connected to one of the private lenders we know. And now they’re insisting that we arrange a meeting with the family.”

I was curious but calm. “So what’s the issue?” I asked.

There was a long pause on the other end.

Then, after much hesitation, my mother said quietly, “They want you to come to their house… not as a son-in-law, but as a daughter-in-law.”

It felt like the silence on the line had a weight of its own. My mind went blank, yet it was racing at the same time—like trying to catch your breath after a sudden fall.

Come to their house as a daughter-in-law?

I didn’t give her an answer right away. I told her I needed time to think.

Later that evening, my phone rang. It was Shivani.

She didn’t waste time.

“Hari… I need to talk to you before Mom tells you everything.”

Her voice carried a seriousness I hadn’t heard in a while.

“I already know,” I said quietly. “About the alliance… and that they want me to come as a daughter-in-law.”

She paused, then said, “Okay, then let me fill in the blanks. I’ve spoken to the boy. His name is Vimal.”

That name meant nothing to me yet. But her tone said it soon would.

“He’s from a Jain family,” she continued. “Quite a wealthy and respected one here in Bangalore. They’re a bit orthodox in their community, but within their immediate family, there’s a lot more understanding than you’d expect.”

I raised an eyebrow. “Orthodox… but they’re okay with their son marrying a man?”

“That’s the surprising part,” she said. “Vimal came out to them a few years ago. It took time, but eventually, they came to terms with it—privately, of course. They’re quietly accepting their son for who he is, within the limits of their social world.”

I didn’t know what to say.

Then she added something that caught me completely off guard.

“And you know what else? Vimal has seen you before. Twice.”

My heart skipped slightly. “What do you mean?”

“Once in Guntur, and once here in Bangalore,” she said.”

I went silent, trying to replay every moment I could remember—when, where, how.

“He saw something in you,” Shivani continued. “Your calmness, your softness, your presence. He said you had this quiet dignity that stayed with him.”

I didn’t know what to do with that. I wasn’t used to being looked at that way—seen that deeply.

“Shivani… this is too much,” I said, my voice low. “Why didn’t anyone ask me if I was even okay with being considered like this? With being seen this way?”

Then she added, “Look, all I’m asking is—just meet him. Not for marriage. Not for commitment. Just one conversation. Hear him out. And decide for yourself, not for Mom, not for Dad, not for anyone else.”

Then she added one last thing, almost like a whisper:

“And Hari… if someone like Vimal, raised in a conservative Jain family, has the courage to choose you, don’t you think you at least deserve to know why?”

That line stayed with me long after the call ended.

The next evening, Shivani and I boarded an overnight bus to Guntur.

She had quietly booked the tickets without saying much, just sending me a message:
"Bus at 7:45 PM. Majestic. Volvo sleeper. Bring a light jacket."

That was it.

We met at the bus stand, exchanged a small smile, and got on board. Our berths were side by side—mine by the window, hers on the aisle. As the bus pulled out of the city and the lights of Bangalore started to fade behind us, I looked outside and let my thoughts drift.

For a journey that was about something so big, so personal, we spoke very little.

Aside from asking whether I had eaten, or whether the AC was too cold, or if I had an extra charger cable, Shivani didn’t bring up Vimal. Not once. And I didn’t ask.

There was a strange kind of comfort in that silence. It wasn’t awkward—it was just… respectful. She knew I needed space. And I knew she was giving it to me without making it obvious.

At one point during the night, I glanced over and saw her asleep, her head resting lightly against the seat wall, arms folded across her chest. For a moment, I felt a deep sense of gratitude. Whatever was waiting for me in Guntur, I wasn’t walking into it alone.

The hum of the bus, the occasional streetlights streaking past the window, the faint sound of someone's ringtone a few rows down—all of it created a kind of stillness that made me turn inward.

I kept thinking: What do I even say to someone who thinks he's in love with me? What if I don't feel anything? What if I do?

But I knew there were no answers yet.

We reached Guntur on Saturday morning, just as the first light was beginning to wash over the streets. The bus rolled into the depot with a gentle lurch, waking Shivani. She rubbed her eyes, looked at me, and smiled.

“Ready?” she asked softly.

I nodded. Not because I was ready. But because I was already here.

 

After we reached home, I took blessings from my parents. Mom smiled and blessed me, but Dad didn’t say anything. I could see he was confused and lost in his thoughts.

After breakfast, Dad asked me to come outside. We got on his bike and rode to a nearby pan shop. He stopped, lit a cigarette, and asked, “Hari, do you smoke?”

“Sometimes,” I replied.

He bought a Classic Mild, and I took an Ice Burst. This was the first time Dad smoked in front of me, and I smoked in front of him.

After a few puffs, Dad spoke in a soft voice, “Hari, I’m sorry for all this trouble. I took loans hoping to get a bigger share of our family property. But my brothers cheated us, and now this burden is on me.”

He added, “No one is forcing you to accept the marriage proposal.”

I asked, “What did they promise?”

Dad said, “If we agree, they will clear all our loans with interest. They will also give us a house in Bangalore for me and your mom to live in.”

I held his hand and said, “Don’t worry, Dad. Let’s meet them and see what they want.”

He nodded. Then I asked, “When will they come?”

“Tomorrow,” he said.

Later, I told Dad, “I will leave for Bangalore on Sunday evening. I haven’t applied for leave.”

Dad looked at me and I felt he understood that I was not ready for this marriage.

 

With that we both reached home and after breakfast I had good sleep. When I got up, it was almost 2.30 PM. By that time, both mom and sister finished their lunch and Dad was in office. And it seems Dad didn’t came back from office. Normally Saturday is half day for him. I totally understood his thoughts. With so much difficulty, I finished my bath as I had lot of fatigue with thoughts across and then I had good lunch made by mom. After lunch, Shivani my sister took me the room and then mom followed me. And then mom holded my chin and told me that for tomorrow my decision will be final and don’t worry about anything. With this, I got little happier. And then Shivani mentioned that her friend will be coming in tomorrow early morning to do some make up for me.

I was surprised as to why make over is required. Then with hesitancy, Shivani mentioned that Vimal and his mom will be coming tomorrow and they want you to be dressed in saree only. But after so much of requests from mom and sister, I accepted for it. With out any choice left in my case, I decided to go with the flow. But I clearly told them I have lot of work to do on Monday in office and hence will be leaving on Sunday evening. Then Shivani mentioned that even Vimal will be leaving towards Bangalore on Sunday evening and I can go along with them. My irritation is going to next level, but I continued to control my anger.

Shivani showed me two sarees one in blue and other in yellow saree. She asked me to choose one. I looked at my mother. Then my mother understood my doubts and she kept both sarees on my shoulder and then at last she selected yellow colour saree.